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Very bad night. Not sure I've dealt much, if at all, with the events of the last couple years. I can't stop thinking about memories and what ifs. Can't quit crying. What else is going to be taken from me? I've lost a son, my grandparents, pets...two more are old and starting to shut down. Probably won't be able to keep the home I grew up in that my grandparents worked so hard for. There is no time to cry save night when I'm alone. I just keep waiting for the next crisis and bad news and what else am I going to lose?